washing the blood off my hands

I've dragged Tem into watching Danganronpa: Despair Time, because I can't suffer alone, and xe swiftly pointed out Eden's claim that she makes antique clocks. N... no, Eden. No, I really don't think you do.

The trouble with writing fanfiction for Danganronpa: Despair Time is that there are so many unknowns. There are a couple of characters where what you see is what you get, maybe, but so many characters are hiding things! How am I supposed to write them with confidence?

Maybe I should just make my peace with the fact that, whatever I write, it may end up being at odds with later canon. (This is also an issue I have when writing fanfiction for Deltarune.)

I wrote the above before writing Reality, incidentally. It does seem a bit silly to complain it's impossible to write Despair Time fanfiction and then immediately write Despair Time fanfiction. I've written three fics already; it can't be that hard!

Below the cut: more disjointed rambling about Danganronpa: Despair Time, with spoilers up to the end of chapter two.


( Yet more talking about Danganronpa: Despair Time. )


I keep thinking 'if I made a fourth website, it could be about Danganronpa.' No!! I can't do this again!!

I continue to write exactly the same fic concepts in every single fandom, and nobody can stop me.

I've stretched out the timeline a little here; certain events take place a few days further apart in this fic than they do in canon!


Title: Reality
Fandom: Danganronpa: Despair Time
Rating: PG-13
Wordcount: 2,400
Summary: Spending this much time with the dead doesn’t seem healthy. But it’s not like David has had particularly healthy habits up to this point.
Warnings: Spoilers up to the end of chapter two.


( Reality )

Horrible selfcest time! My favourite time!! Please enjoy this gratuitous and unpleasant Danganronpa: Despair Time selfcest.


Title: Self-Discovery
Fandom: Danganronpa: Despair Time
Rating: 16
Pairing: David/David, one-sided David/Xander
Wordcount: 1,500
Summary: “It’s almost like the whole universe is telling you to go fuck yourself.”
Warnings: dubious consent, generally kind of fucked up, spoilers up to the end of chapter two


( Self-Discovery )

Sometimes I finish a canon and have to write fanfiction IMMEDIATELY to deal with the fact that there is no more canon left. I finished watching Danganronpa: Despair Time approximately twenty-four hours ago; here's a fic.


Title: Bad Company
Fandom: Danganronpa: Despair Time
Rating: 15
Pairing: Arei/David
Wordcount: 1,200
Summary: Arei grins. “Hiiiii, David. That’s the real you, isn’t it?”


( Bad Company )

I recently posted this meme to my Tumblr:

Ask me whether I’ve written a thing (ship, trope, dynamic, category of fandom, etc.) and if I’ve written it, I’ll link you. If I haven’t written it, I’ll tell you how I would write it if I did.

(The meme is called 'fic author Never Have I Ever', although obviously you can ask whether I've written something even if you've written it yourself!)

Here are the resulting questions, and my responses!


keltena: For Never Have I Ever – 2nd person?

Ooh, good question! I’ve only written second person a couple of times.

Caged (Deltarune, 2018) was my first Deltarune fic, written when only the first chapter of the game had been released. The narration of Deltarune is written in second person, so I felt it made sense to use second person for Kris’s perspective!

I can’t remember my exact reasoning for using second person in Astray (Life Is Strange 2, 2019), but I think I can make a good guess! Daniel Diaz, at the age of nine, is the youngest character I’ve ever written from the perspective of, and I was concerned about getting the right narrative voice for him. Writing in second person let me remove the narrative voice from Daniel slightly, so I didn’t have to worry so much about making sure it felt authentically nine years old. I did still try to capture some element of Daniel’s voice, though!


doreyg: Epistolary for the Never Have I Ever meme?

Note from the future: I actually misunderstood what 'epistolary' meant when I answered this! For some reason I’d got it into my head that epistolary fiction had to involve an exchange of messages (letters, emails, notes, telegrams etc.); I hadn’t realised it was just telling a story through documents of any sort. So it turns out that the Visitorverse chapter I mention below does, in fact, count as epistolary fiction!

Oh, I’ve actually never tried writing epistolary fiction! The closest I’ve got is this chapter from the Visitorverse (Assassin’s Creed, 2015), told in the form of in-universe documents: an email and three interview transcripts.

I’ve read some very cool epistolary fanfiction, but I think I’d struggle to write it myself. People have such different speaking and writing voices, and most canons don’t provide a lot of in-universe written material, so I rarely get the opportunity to familiarise myself with the characters’ writing styles!


runicmagitek: for the Never Have I Ever ask: arranged marriage fic?

This one I’ve really never written at all! Possibly because most of my ships don’t really lend themselves to being married. I don’t think I’ve ever written about characters being married if they’re not married in canon, come to think of it. (Well, there’s Aveline/Shay in the Visitorverse, but one of my cowriters had previously established them as married within our shared universe, so they were married in... fic canon?)

If I did write arranged marriage fanfiction... hmm. I think this trope could be fun in Death Note, actually. Light and L get an arranged marriage to each other; they ignore each other completely because they’re busy murdering and trying to catch Kira, respectively; they slowly realise that the person they’re married to might be their enemy.


marmolita: have you ever written sex pollen?

Sort of! I haven’t written literal sex pollen, but I have written characters having (fade-to-black) sex as a result of some sort of mind-altering influence.

In canon, just before transforming, the werewolves in The Quarry seem to get a little giddy, having their moods and urges amplified. It seemed like a good excuse to write a fic in which lycanthropy essentially functioned as sex pollen: Burning (The Quarry, 2023, Laura/Travis, non-explicit mutual dubcon).


goforthequill: Have you ever written a fic about culture shock?

Oh, interesting question! I think Overwritten (Severance, 2024) might qualify? Mark reintegrates, meaning that the half of him who’s spent his entire life in an office suddenly has to cope with being in the outside world, and he doesn’t really know how to handle it.


I really enjoyed doing this, so, if you're curious about whether I've ever written something in particular, feel free to ask in the comments!